yeah, this could be a problem

it's so nice out. spent most of the day asleep (remember a few odd hours in between when I was awake but so dysfunctional and groggy) and so missed out on the weather.

but went out and got tasti and sat in the park with a friend and that was nice.

oh, and there was that part of the day where I saw something that made my heart ache just a little bit. not that much though. but yeah. this year has basically ended for me and now it's just a matter of waiting, waiting.

maybe I'll go to steinhardt for a bit and work on the new piece, before I lose it. I need coffee. Orens is closed, Jack's will be closed in 15 minutes, and that leaves me to..........dean&deluca. damnit. damnit damnit. Don't want to waste my money on d&d coffee. but it is necessary.

and am starting to realize how behind I am in work given I haven't done an ounce of it all weekend (what else is new) so let me indulge you in a little to-do list (you really don't have to read this, it's more for my cluttered brain)
- email advisor, set up meeting
- do research for internet project
- read five more ellison essays
- get don greene book, read through chap.4
- french
- politics reading
- african diaspora reading

shit. now I don't feel like going to steinhardt because I feel overwhelmed once again.
oh and the waves of "what the fuck was I thinking" are still ever so present. and they're more like tsunami waves, really.