oh, chariot

had a songwriting breakthrough at 3 am. been struggling with "Gravity" for months, and then just wrote everything in about an hour.

it's fucking complex, and doesn't quite make complete sense in my head yet, but it's raw and real and i want it to work.

joni mitchell reference is a backbone of the song. starts and ends in a very different place. can only speak in fragments because it's late and i'm in a very abnormal state of mind.
here it is, the rough draft of "Gravity," finally. let me know what you think, i'm very excited about this piece.


this one is dedicated to you, naima.
love, C

Gravity
Looking around, seems
everyones perfected the look
of complete indifference in the
subway cars

They sit in a line,
underground lights place a
twinkle in their dead eyes

I can't write fast enough to keep
the tears behind floodgates
You walked away and made me feel

Every flash of the subterranean bulb
suddenly renders shared gazes
meaningful and meaningless

Before you walk off into the sunset backdrop,
give me a knowing smile, cowboy
Deceive me into thinking heartache is beautiful.

I can't write fast enough to keep
the tears behind floodgates
You walked away and made me feel

Slide into a big yellow taxi,
I knew what I had but it's gone anyway.
Just keep driving through the fog, won't look back
It's not bravado, I'm just preoccupied wiping tears

Humiliated that all past intimacy,
real or imagined,
has a void stamp
A completed transaction;
shall I congratulate you?

I can't write fast enough to keep
the tears behind floodgates
You walked away and made me feel

This pain is universal--
On the edge of an abyss so welcoming,
I step onto the void;

suspended, breath held

Gravity fails me and I find myself
on a strip of black paint

You walked away, off into the sunset backdrop
and made me feel
You walked away and made me feel

I walk onto the platform,
feet on the ground.